"I don't believe you're a man at all, and I don't believe you've got a heart. Squabble, you call it? I wish you would. You sit there with your fishy eyes staring at nothing, thinking, thinking, thinking. What's the good of it all? Who's right and who's wrong? What's it matter? If you loved me I'd be right whatever I did. Go on! Look at me! You don't know me, don't you? I'm the woman you've been living with these last two years. That's who I am. If you're sick of me, why don't you say so? I'm no lady, thank God. I do know when I'm not wanted. I'm not going to stay with any man on God's earth when he doesn't want me. I've nearly left you time and time again, when you've looked at me like that."
He brushed his hand across his eyes. He was feeling sick and dazed. She looked so ugly.
"I've put up with things because of you, I have. You don't know what people say, or care. You won't never know what they say, you're that blooming innocent, thinking everybody means well. I've put up with things, and been glad of 'em, and I've put up with things from you that I couldn't have believed any woman would ever have to put up with----"
She gasped at him, tried to stop, but because she had begun to enjoy her fury, she forced the note and screamed at him:
"You want a virgin saint to live with you, not a woman."
Now she stopped, aghast at herself, horrified by the pain and disgust she had brought into his eyes. He could hardly speak, and jerked out:
"I didn't know. . . . I didn't know I'd done all that to you, Ann. I'm so terribly sorry. I seem to make a mess of things always."
She had turned her back on him, and he knew that she was weeping. He had no desire to console her. He wished only to get away. Neither could break the heavy silence that followed the storm. He left her, though he could hardly move, so acute was his physical exhaustion. Groping his way along the wall of the mews, he counted the doors until he came to Kilner's. The rooms were empty. He flung himself on the bed and lay chilled and racked, thinking only of Ann weeping, unmoved, detached, feeling neither sorrow nor hate. She had robbed him of all capacity of emotion, all power of thought. The storm had been so unlocked for. Rita was so remote from them. Why should Rita and anything she said or did have let loose upon them so violent a convulsion?