And that still keeping up the old connection, Which time had lately render’d much more chaste, She took his lady also in affection, And certainly this course was much the best: She flatter’d Julia with her sage protection, And complimented Don Alfonso’s taste; And if she could not (who can?) silence scandal, At least she left it a more slender handle.
I can’t tell whether Julia saw the affair With other people’s eyes, or if her own Discoveries made, but none could be aware Of this, at least no symptom e’er was shown; Perhaps she did not know, or did not care, Indifferent from the first or callous grown: I’m really puzzled what to think or say, She kept her counsel in so close a way.
Juan she saw, and, as a pretty child, Caress’d him often—such a thing might be Quite innocently done, and harmless styled, When she had twenty years, and thirteen he; But I am not so sure I should have smiled When he was sixteen, Julia twenty-three; These few short years make wondrous alterations, Particularly amongst sun-burnt nations.
Whate’er the cause might be, they had become Changed; for the dame grew distant, the youth shy, Their looks cast down, their greetings almost dumb, And much embarrassment in either eye; There surely will be little doubt with some That Donna Julia knew the reason why, But as for Juan, he had no more notion Than he who never saw the sea of ocean.
Yet Julia’s very coldness still was kind, And tremulously gentle her small hand Withdrew itself from his, but left behind A little pressure, thrilling, and so bland And slight, so very slight, that to the mind ’Twas but a doubt; but ne’er magician’s wand Wrought change with all Armida’s fairy art Like what this light touch left on Juan’s heart.
And if she met him, though she smiled no more, She look’d a sadness sweeter than her smile, As if her heart had deeper thoughts in store She must not own, but cherish’d more the while For that compression in its burning core; Even innocence itself has many a wile, And will not dare to trust itself with truth, And love is taught hypocrisy from youth.
But passion most dissembles, yet betrays Even by its darkness; as the blackest sky Foretells the heaviest tempest, it displays Its workings through the vainly guarded eye, And in whatever aspect it arrays Itself, ’tis still the same hypocrisy; Coldness or anger, even disdain or hate, Are masks it often wears, and still too late.