For your sake, O my brethren, and my sons These things have I recorded. Something I wrought: Strive ye in loftier labours; strive, and win: Your victory shall be mine: my crown are ye. My part is ended now. I lived for Truth: I to this people gave that truth I knew; My witnesses ye are I grudged it not: Freely did I receive, freely I gave; Baptising, or confirming, or ordaining, I sold not things divine. Of mine own store Ofttimes the hire of fifteen men I paid For guard where bandits lurked. When prince or chief Laid on God’s altar ring, or torque, or gold, I sent them back. Too fortunate, too beloved, I said, “Can he Apostle be who bears Such scanty marks of Christ’s Apostolate, Hunger, and thirst, and scorn of men?” For this, Those pains they spared I spared not to myself, The body’s daily death. I make not boast: What boast have I? If God His servant raised, He knoweth—not ye—how oft I fell; how low; How oft in faithless longings yearned my heart For faces of His Saints in mine own land, Remembered fields far off. This, too, He knoweth, How perilous is the path of great attempts, How oft pride meets us on the storm-vexed height, Pride, or some sting its scourge. My hope is He: His hand, my help so long, will loose me never: And, thanks to God, the sheltering grave is near.
How still this eve! The morn was racked with storm: ’Tis past; the skylark sings; the tide at flood Sighs a soft joy: alone those lines of weed Report the wrath foregone. Yon watery plain Far shines, a mingled sea of glass and fire, Even as that Beatific Sea outspread Before the Throne of God. ’Tis Paschal Tide;— O sorrowful, O blissful Paschal Tide! Fain would I die on Holy Saturday; For then, as now, the storm is past—the woe; And, somewhere ’mid the shades of Olivet Lies sealed the sacred cave of that Repose Watched by the Holy Women. Earth, that sing’st, Since first He made thee, thy Creator’s praise, Sing, sing, thy Saviour’s! Myriad-minded sea, How that bright secret thrills thy rippling lips Which shake, yet speak not! Thou that mad’st the worlds, Man, too, Thou mad’st; within Thy Hands the life Of each was shapen, and new-wov’n ran out, New-willed each moment. What makes up that life? Love infinite, and nothing else save love! Help ere need came, deliverance ere defeat; At every step an angel to sustain us, An angel to retrieve! My years are gone: Sweet were they with a sweetness felt but half Till now;—not half discerned. Those blessèd years I would re-live, deferring thus so long The Vision of Thy Face, if thus with gaze Cast backward I might _see_ that guiding hand Step after step, and kiss it.