"He is very lonely. He would be more lonely than she is, for he has no such servant as Martha to be with him. Women can do better than men, I think, when they come to my aunt's age."
From this they got into a conversation as to the character of the lady with whom they were both so nearly connected, and, in spite of all that Clara could do to prevent it, continual references were made by Captain Aylmer to her money and her will, and the need of an addition to that will on Clara's behalf. At last she was driven to speak out. "Captain Aylmer," she said, "the subject is so distasteful to me, that I must ask you not to speak about it."
"In my position I am driven to think about it."
"I cannot, of course, help your thoughts; but I can assure you that they are unnecessary."
"It seems to me so hard that there should be such a gulf between you and me." This he said after he had been silent for a while; and as he spoke he looked away from her at the fire.
"I don't know that there is any particular gulf," she replied.
"Yes, there is. And it is you that make it. Whenever I attempt to speak to you as a friend you draw yourself off from me, and shut yourself up. I know that it is not jealousy."
"You are infinitely too proud for that; but I am sure that a stranger seeing it all would think that it was so."
"I don't know what it is that I do or that I ought not to do. But all my life everything that I have done at Perivale has always been wrong."
"It would have been so natural that you and I should be friends."
"If we are enemies, Captain Aylmer, I don't know it."
"But if ever I venture to speak of your future life you always repel me;--as though you were determined to let me know that it should not be a matter of care to me."
"That is exactly what I am determined to let you know. You are, or will be, a rich man, and you have everything the world can give you. I am, or shall be, a very poor woman."
"Is that a reason why I should not be interested in your welfare?"
"Yes;--the best reason in the world. We are not related to each other, though we have a common connection in dear Mrs. Winterfield. And nothing, to my idea, can be more objectionable than any sort of dependence from a woman of my age on a man of yours,--there being no real tie of blood between them. I have spoken very plainly, Captain Aylmer, for you have made me do it."
